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Life is wonderful, but it can be suck when we, ourselves turn it in to worst situation. Each individual have their own way how to make their life more wonderful than others. Some of them willing to struggle so hard and never give up to achieve for a better life. While others could use different way to achieve their goal. While me have nothing to show off, I use my soul, brain and body to achieve my goals.

Envy. Why should we feel envy for others? The emotion of envy are common sense to everyone. I envy myself. Envy why I couldn't be better. I envy when the time the strength come across but I just let it passing by without stop and use it carefully. I envy on something that I couldn't have while I struggle so hard for it. Although I envy about myself but there are some people who envy on my serba kekurangan punya life. Funny. They would judge and turn my life up side down just because of too envy and wanted to be like me. I don't mind to be their idol for everything but not to mess with me. My pleasure for those who wanna copy right my style. But what make me uncomfortable and piss off is when some people just get jealous / envy on what I have and what I am doing. Or more easy to say, envy on who I am. Come on.. get a life! Anybody can be anyone as they wanted to be. I follow on what my mind say. I be my own selves. I don't need to be like anyone else. I struggled for what I have. Bukan jatuh dari langit pun.

Decided to continue my pending study is the right decision. I have reason for that. At first of cos because of someone who I ever love. Just to improve myself that I am capable to be a better person for him in the future. But then it turn to be worthless as he didn't see everything about me. Other reason is for myself. I need 'something' to guarantee my life in the future. That is what my beloved Daddy wanted to see before. To see his daughter to be someone successful. He ever said, knowledge is not sin. Nothing to loss to learning more. Someday, I'll show and prove to Daddy that his daughter BOLEH! With God willing. For sure I wont just stop until stage one. I'll be on upper stage further. I wanted to be successful person no matter in what profession. Willing to share every knowledge that I know to anyone who need it. Why should be stingy? Who does not thank for little will not thank for much. I hope someday, I can do something that make myself proud to be who I am. Age and the look is not the problem to success. For what I am now, I wanted to be the first to be success. To show to the world that someone with this look/ form can be proud in the future. I never give up in everything I want. Life is wonderful and I grab every opportunities to make it more wonderful for me. Why should I be sad for someone that never will understand what's the meaning of life? Tiada rugi nye.

However, first battle just end. So now waiting for the result and looking forward for new battles. I know I can do it! This is for my haters, I love all of you, so much. No matter what you wanna do to ruin me, it's just NOTHING to me because my life is only for myself. Hate me more will encourage you to be yourself. Love me then.. at least you know how to appreciate yourself ~ 

Got to go~ enjoy my night~

Luv

Finally, she gave up!

Well hell yea.. now you know what type of person I am uh. You simply pijak my tail and say NO SORRY uh. You mocked me inside your blog and cursed everyone you dislikes then now you jilat back my kaki. Who do you think you are? President's daughter? I wont just sit down if there's people who cari pasal with me first. As I tak cari pasal but pasal yang cari I dulu. She knew that I'm not in the good mood lately. She pula buat hal that I have no idea what make she jadi gila like that. 

And what a surprised one morning, she pop up in front of me, in front of my tables and talk to me. What make it funny is, she asked me if I still mad on her. Well, honestly, I looked in to you just like half tiang punya orang. You have no mercy cursed everyone who have no problem with you. Then you mocked them like you are the only staff who working so hard but the fact is you are no different than others. How if all of them (who you did cursed) curse you, right in front of you face? I bet you will get mad until you throw everything yea. I have no idea what category you are. After what had you did, I felt like I don't know you at all. 1 year, you can be someone that so kind to everyone, and you can changed so drastic. Just the same as someone that I known very well, changed so drastic. Uh huh.. No need to mention here. That someone know who I referring to. 

So this Ms. Frog (yea I did created nick name for her as she loves to cursed people become frog), she even ask me to swear on the name of Noty (my adorable dog) if I never mad on her. Gila! I thought I know only one person who is insane, but I got another one pula insane. Sigh! However, don't let I fuck off with her again. Else, rambut lurus straighten dia tu habis I gunting nanti. She finally admitted she did mocked me in her blog. She thought I not dare to slap her ar?? How it feel le? I even dare tegur senior student at college just because she park her car at the passing way. Goody of me is no more guai guai. People mess with me first, I give much spicy mess for return.That's me. Who should I blame too? Someone ...

Forgiveness? Will they changed after we forgive them? No. Not at all. Forgiveness for them just nothing. I wish (since so long I didn't use word of 'wish') God will punish those who did something to me. Anyway, I love my haters.

Luv

First battle ended!

It's been few days I didn't update my blog. Quite busy for my revision. Seems I have a lot to share with. :) Miss my blog~

Felt relief! The last battle just ended today. Thanks God that I can gone through all papers without worry. But then the percentage to get higher pointer, quite low. Anyway, I'm confident enough that I'll pass. Hehe! Nothing is impossible right? Luckily I get higher mark on my midterm exam. So at least can support lah sikit. However, I'll show to someone that I am capable to be successful person in future and by that time, he will regret for letting me go. Well, like I care? Nahh..

Now I'm looking forward for next semester. Huhu.. Next mission will be something that I wont miss up. At the mean time, everyone seems in planning of some plans to release out the stresses. Can't wait for my trip to visit few places this year. It's time to buzz out! Few months coming, all I need now is be a little bit patience. 

Luv

No more forgiveness for you.

To say a word of SORRY doesn't work on me anymore. What's the point to ask for apologize?? Could you turn back time after you ask for apologize? Would your apologize will make everything back to normal? Would SORRY can cure the scars, stop the bleeding, and the most is can your SORRY change the sorrow to colorful rainbows again? You couldn't right? So why should I accept your apologize? I am not forgiven person, ONLY to jerks. Wanna your forgiveness so that you wouldn't get 'unlucky' life? Ask from God. Temptations is every where, and that will teach you a lesson about nature of life. I'm not talking bullshit if I don't get really in sorrow. 

Until forever, no forgiveness for you as what you did is more than suicide. Else, none of woman will ruin themselves just because of men, majority. Loyalty uh? You are so confidence at early stage about loyalty in relationship, yet you cheated on those women you destroyed. People who love only once in their lives are ...shallow people. What they call their loyalty, and their fidelity, I call either the lethargy of custom or their lack of imagination. No point to say loyalty while you still with your 'selfish sex-maniac attitude'. However, you did so many sins, will nature just forget about that? Some how, you didn't believe / trust in God. 

He who does not feel his girl to be the world to him, does not deserve that the world should hear of him. No matter who the 'unlucky' girl to be with him in future, will get the same sorrow too, for the rest of their generation. Yea.. I am a bad person, he made me become this. SORRY doesn't work on me. Loyalty means nothing unless it has at its heart the absolute principle of self-sacrifice. The best things in life are never rationed. Friendship, loyalty, love do not require coupons. Put down? Have you realize / notice how many times I gave chances to you for that many years? Have you open your eyes wider to see how many times I put down to trust you again, every time you came back to me? You come and leave whenever you want without think how I felt. Can I see another woe, and not be in sorrow too? Can I see another grief, and not seek for kind relief? No! I am enjoying every minutes I have, now. Enjoying to see how 'lucky' is your life until your next generation. 

Don't ask forgiveness from me, anymore. I've given too much forgiveness until you never appreciate it. What's comes around WILL goes around. Chaos!~

You made me do this.

Luv

Don't simply spit every where

Exam will be held tomorrow. Oh my.. I do feel nervous! It's final exam what.. Huhu.. May God bless me and give me strength to go through it with peaceful mind. I know I can do it! Nothing is impossible. This is the time to show my ability and prove that I can stand up on my own foot! Any temptations that comes will be my challenges in my life. I working hard for future. 

For those who ever cursed, mocked, insulted, humiliated, judged or so on, however I still who I am. I know that someday, every shit you all ever gave, it will turn back to all of you. Aren't I suit to be an angel? :)

Something that unexpected terjadi since few days ago. He (jerk) has been looked for me until today. Ask a favor from me. Sorry dude, I am no longer yours. It's done! Finish! Tamat! The end! You did slapped your own lips, dude. I am happy with my current life and I don't need you to be my 'rubbish'. Although the scars remains, you will regret the most to hurts me deeply, indeed. What's comes around will goes around. Remember that. I gave so much chances to all of you to correct the mistake but it's doesn't work uh..? So it's out of my control if someday God will take everything what's belong to you on earth.

Okie back to study time!

Luv

Karma

It's Saturday! I thought today was Sunday. LOL. Today was great, in other meaning of GREAT, I caught by flu for the whole day. How good is that. Spoiled my day. But then I do look cute and sexy today. Hihi.. Look so dull since past few months. Now then the real of me are coming back. I went to Eng's house today. To do my revision. The only place that I can fully focus to my study. I cant focus when I am at home, not because of the entertainment stuffs, but I can't focus when mom often disturb me for unnecessary matters. 

Well, it's not the focal point of the story for today. It is about Ms. Froggy. She's seems been stopped from 'hitting' her nuclear. But what a surprise for today's blog, she posted something that opposite. Now then she turning her satellite to the management on her unsatisfied job. Geez! Something wrong with this girl. A day ago she 'barking' like a crazy dog. Now then she yelling like a crazy woman. I think she really need psychologist. She need a life to make her be useful-brain person. Or might be she afraid that I might do something on her. Let me tell you here girl, you are just a little girl to me and you are nothing at all. Ruin your life? Just a clip of moment, I can make your life disaster. But I wont do that until you release your nuclear first. My motto, don't ever mess with me. Once you start, you definitely couldn't turn back time. You spoiled everyone in your blog for no mercy, cursed everyone who are kind and nice to you. But then you just return their goodness by cursing them. What a nice... your parents tak ajar you about morality ar? Jahat jahat I, I don't even dare to curse anyone as bad as you are. 

You still young to judge anyone around. It's still long way for you to learning. I believe in karma. What comes around will goes around. I've seen a lot of scenarios and experienced a  lot of things. What else to say, I still learning too. The more we 'merendahkan diri', the more we can learn. I never ask for their return to the kindness I did to them. Appreciate that I want the most. We don't know what we can find in the future. Like someone that I ever love so much. It's been more than couple of weeks I purposely didn't contact him and I was surprised when I received one SMS from him, 'What you want?'. I was 'uhh??'. It's sound like I'm the one go cari him pula. He have been looked for me for 3 days including today. I know for what reason he is looking for me. Of cos for free-sex-service. What he thought I am?? Don't think that I can't live without you. Now then I feel peaceful without you around. 4 Months is more than enough to taught me about sadness and miserable that you ever gave. However, the scars remain. Do you still remember what have you said before? You can tahan not to have sex with anyone for 2 - 3 months. Uh huhh... (I was cynic smile when I think back on what you have said) 2 Weeks sudah tidak tahan. Well, you get used to f**k with 30 - 50 bux pussy. So, just get it from them. Oh ya.. Aren't you said, you got a wife? Why still wana get outsider's pussy? Indon girl's pussy tak nyaman ar? LMAO!! You deserved it! Karma~

Luv

Forgiveness (for Ms. Froggy)

Forgiveness is the best way to forget everything. I've decided to forgive her for what she's doing. Although she is not my comparison (she's seems a little girl to me), nothing to worry about. What she can do other than mumbling like she's perfect inside her blog le? Yeah everyone does make mistake what..she's lucky that she's given by God a good brain. 

My temper just about to explode when I saw on what she did wrote on her blog for today. Tak sedar diri sangat lah this girl. She thought she have her 'laki', so she doesn't care if she doesn't need others. Tsk tsk tsk! Something wrong with her. There's another person on the same boat as her.. my HR. This andartu tak sedar diri also. What a terrible thing about her is, she have no mercy or I can say heartless whenever she in the situation that need she to act as a 'superwoman' and showing her 'ngiao ji' skills in front everybody. What the ...

Ms. Froggy love being alone in the office. Acting like she's so rajin in front those management. Some more pretending she likes her tasks so much but the facts is she keep on mocking those people from behind. Cheap way uhh.. HYPOCRITE. I am not perfect but my kindness always be the problem between friendship. Well, I might reduce my attitude which is being 'so kind' to everyone. If you dare dear Ms. Froggy, just confront me. Let's see how far you can be 'ngiao ji' le. Apa you nak compare about me? A house? At least I don't live in wooden house. A car? I own a car. You? Tumpang kesenangan 'laki' jak. Apa yang bagus about you? Proud with your tasks that you hate so much? Proud to have a boyfriend uh? Orang lain bercinta juga. Tak juga 'gambong' until need you to judge others. Look yourself onto mirror first dear. Else you gonna slap your own mouth. That's what often happen to those who ever do the same thing you are doing now. What you have I can have too. I have most all of your stuffs earlier than you. So what else you can compete me? Just one thing, you not dare to confront me as you know that you the one started it first. As you knowing, I am a type who wont disturb your life if you doesn't start it first. Easy, take it or leave it!

Luv

It's just a glass! Not a diamond. Fake!! Booooo!!

Some people, we thought a nice and kind person, but the fact is they are the most disgust type of person. There's a girl who I never expected to be a stabber could stabbed me from behind for no reason that I have no clue until today. She was someone that I respect the most, she's kind and nice person since a year ago. I couldn't believe she have guts mocking me inside her blog. What's wrong with you girl?! What I did wrong to you? Tell me! Don't simply judge me. You know what type of person I am. If you doesn't feel happy with me, just say so. No need being so rude and so pathetic by cursing everyone on your blog. I know its democratic country. Well, why the hell you scare to type down my name on your blog? Democratic uh? Afraid I'll sue you ar? You seems so daring mocking me, why don't you show your 'power' in front of my face? That's baru lah ngam! Let's see how far you can do that. I ain't got nothing to scare as I don't do anything bad to you. Did I? 

Well, you use your blog just to get attention right? And acting being nice and 'rajin' in front of everyone? Let me tell you something here, whenever you got the chance to find and view my blog, no one happy with your attitude dear. It's been a year, we've been working under the same roof, and what I heard more about you is something not good. But what I did? I've told them you are such a nice person. From what I've seen since last few months, you seems different. Suka hati you jer nak sumpah orang. Suka hati you jak nak marah orang. Stress uh? If you doesn't like your current job, you are freely to go mah.. isn't it democratic country?? What's the point you keep on complaining about everyone and comparing your tasks and not happy with your pay? You may cabut from that company mah... no body halang you pun.

I am bad person..but how daring I am, I use my brain and heart to see the situation without hurting other people's feeling. For example, I didn't curse anyone that I dislikes. I forgive them and let God determine their sins. But might it use to be you cursing everyone you hate, as you have no religion (it's not because the person are Christian, Muslim or other religions but it's individual attitude problem you should change). Everyone does mistake, so do you. If you are not happy with me, take it or leave it! I don't bother to be kind on such a ngiao ji type of person. I know that you don't need anyone other than your 'laki'. Don't be so action ok. No one perfect so do you. Be thankful on what you have now. Don't ruin it by your own mistake.

One thing is, do look yourself on mirror dear. Is that you can be as you are today by cursing others? I really hate someone play on 'curse' word. As you know, what's come around will goes around. I didn't use your money pun. So why should I scare le? I makan pun guna duit sendiri. I shopping pun tak minta you pay for it. I still can afford what. Did I 'mengemis' your money? I bought watch which cost me more than RM300, not one but more than one, did I show off meh? Did I ask for your money to get branded stuffs mah? I bought branded shoes which is cost me more than RM300 also, did I tell the whole world mah? Baru now I mentioning it just because you love to compare yourself with others. What ever it is... you have your own specialty / personality, so do I. I am good enough not to ruin your periuk nasi oh. Don't mess with me. We're doing different tasks everyday, either I'm free or not, it's non of your business. 

"Keep on viewing my blog for more updates about yourself! Alright people, since the world is going crazy now, I think I wouldn't want to miss that chance as well." Well, well, well, we'll see how far you can go. You stepped on wrong tail Ms. Froggy (oh..aren't you love to curse people to become a frog?) LMAO! I lam aughing when I'm thinking about it. Funny what.. Muka tak lah cantik sangat. Nak kata kaya, kaya lebih dari kau pula aku ni. Cuma... aku tak sebusuk kau nak menyumpah and membanding kehidupan orang lain. Ya lahh.. you jer yang pandai. Ambil lah semua nye... Almaklum lah.. budak baru merasa senang. Entah apa apa...

Luv

Today's

Final exam just around the corner and yet I am still fooling around. Geez! I couldn't focus on my revision while I am at home. It's something like magnet when I couldn't take away my sight from my laptop and tv. But I still need to do my revision. Final exam will begin next week, Monday. 

Here what I wanted to complain about is.. my college. WTF! I went to college admin office this morning, just to hand my photo for my student card. Can you all imagine, I've been joined the college for 1 semester and I still didn't get my student card or even student ID number. Not only that, I am so disappointed when one of the officer told me that my documentation lost, couldn't find. So that mean I have to fill up new form and prepare the same documents for their record. How would they didn't take serious on this matter?? I hasn't get my course offer letter from the college too. And embarrassing is they even covered their own mistake! That's mean I am un-recorded student for 1 semester! Kalau pasal duit cepat uh..But it's doesn't matter as long as there's no more problem after this. I don't expect any problem occur ok! 

Today's tasks quite ok lah.. as I was busier myself with my revision, in the office. Kinda tiring when you working in day time and study at night time. But at the same time, it's fun being student back. I like study, learning is good. As long as you study smart but not study hard. Muahhahaha!~ Ok Ginger! Back to study! Will be back again~

Luv

2nd post

I'm back! For 2nd post.. hmmm...what should I posting here. 

A piece of heart ...

I intro myself as a ginger lady. Why ginger? Well, very rare people using this nick right? So that was the first name crossed in my mind. Not to mention my real name here.. :p I'm 29 years old but mostly people will say I am 25. Cute looking face. Honestly speaking, I am doesn't look 29 years old lady. Don't jealous~ Anyway, thanks to God. I am proud to be myself, indeed. So no matter how is my life going on, I always smile.

I live in Miri, Sarawak. I am working person as a ..... (not to mention) at one of quite familiar company in Miri. But if I mention the name, I bet you can guess where is the company and know who I am. :p While working, I'm taking part time study too. I love study and being student. Fun wat..

What type of person I am? Hmmm... Simple yet cute. Likes to smile, laugh, acting cute naturally, friendly if you are friendly as me, mind my own things. Once you get to know me, you'll miss me all nite long. Ye deehh.. hahaha.. What I dislikes about? Hate hypocrite, hate liars, hate those who always look down on others. Hate those who thought they are so perfect. Simple, don't mess with me so you'll be in peaceful being a friend to me. 

Okie... until here then for today. Stay tune yea~

Luv

Introduction

Welcome ~

My introduction ;

Yes! I did created a blog for myself. A diary for everyone who keen to know about my expression and emotions, everyday. So far I have no idea what should I posting here as it's kinda late and my brain running out of battery. Need to charge and get back the energy so that I can post and share about my news of the day. 

Will be back soon. Stay tune yea ~

(Kinda dull uh...) 

Luv