Sunday, May 8

Happy Mother's Day to my mom


A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.

Mother was the bank where we deposited all our hurts and worries. Although the relation between me and mom often misunderstanding to each other, she’s still my mother, thou. No matter what she is the only one I have in the world. And no one could replace her. I look back on my childhood and thank the stars above. For everything you gave me, a mother that taking care for the whole family. She’s the great mother I have thou she not the perfect mother but I accept her as what she is. Everything happened for reason. Right after Dad gone, she have her own reason why she act more aggressive than before. She’s lonely without a husband whom she love the most. Mother: the most beautiful word on the lips of mankind. The greatest thing she’d learned over the years is that there's no way to be a perfect mother, but a million ways to be a good one.

A hundred men may make an encampment, but it takes a woman to make a home. So for men out there, do appreciate women please. The Miracle of Life nurtured by a woman who gave us love and sacrifice. I know how mom treat me since before but I never put it in my heart as she is a mother to me and it’s not something that I should revenge but to give more love toward her. She know more better about her children than other people do.

Mother, I love you so much and please forgive each mistake and hurts that I ever did to u. And I forgiven you and that will still loving you forever no matter how. I know I am not a good daughter as what you want your child to be. It’s normal for a mother being ‘kepo’ on hers children’s matters. But sometimes mom does too much over the limit for that. Mom shouldn’t too much involved in personal life which is not supposed to share with. Sound harsh uh..hehe.. Anyway, I often prays for her health and happiness and wish her being understanding person ever.

 A mother’s work is never done. She works from morning until dawn. She spreads her love and keeps you warm but only once a year we say Mother we wish you “Happy Mothers Day”. So let’s give a huge warm hug and tell her that we do love and appreciate her as a mother to us.

I love you, mom! I do! No matter how is going on between us, I still love you.
And for all mommies out there, Happy Mother’s Day!~ Especially my best gorgeous loving friends, Sophie and mommy wana be, Eng. And not to forget the other mommies followers in my blog. Have a great Mother’s Day.

Okie everyone..need start my day with a smile and couldn’t wait to try my new lenses; purple color this time! Woo woo~ Mengancam eyes babes!
xoxo

My weekend

Spent my time hang out with my dear Eng Eng today. I cut my fore hair but I don't really happy with the result. It's doesn't what I wanted to have. It's ok then..it's just front hair. Will grow faster again. Be patience. But I do look young girl with new style. *blush* After done with salon, we head ourselves to Pizza Hut to have our lunch-tea break. WTF darn hungry! One thing I dislike about Pizza Hut Miri, their service really suck! Me and Eng Eng loves to eat pizza but then every time we have to wait almost half an hour to make an order! What the.. I don't understand what happen to this people. Are they trained to be nerd or standing there for customer view saja? Luckily lah I am a type who really can be much patience. (Angin bagus mah..try when angin tak bagus, confirm 'burning' that place) How ever their service suck, we still be fan to Pizza Hut, because we do like to eat pizza! ;)

After we had our lunch-tea break, we walk around shopping complex, look see look see around. Wanted to buy hair band but didn't found attractive hairband. So end up got nothing there. Today Parkson so crowded because of mini concert and few functions. From the crowded place, my eyes attracted to someone, handsome guy, look perfect to me. I've seen many guys, every where and I even dare see straight away in to their eyes. But this person, does make me felt uncomfortable and I don't even dare to see him when he caught me from watching him. How I wish to have that type of person. I get frustrated with 2 guys in my life. Am I deserve kena treat like an animal meh?? Well, it just a dream. For entertainment aje..cuci mata. :p We continue to full up stomach with sushi. We head our selves to Sushi King. While we happily having our sushi, we did made some side order, have been waiting for sushi that we wanted to eat and keep on monitoring the roller but yet we didn't see what we wanted. So that's why we made an order but then we heard one of the staff 'menyindir' us because we didn't see the sushi that we ordered. WTF! The sushi was at another roller dude! How do you expect customer to walk around to get what we want to eat?! Stupid idiot. I order pun I bayar ok! I pay for your earn! No wonder lah Sushi King, Miri always get bad comments. Service suck than Pizza Hut!

Another story is.. about sex maniac, Ah Kai. I accidentally saw his facebook profile while I searching friend's name. I was shocked and heart pain, honestly. He could dare to post his picture with that Indon bitch for everyone view. Oh please lah.. if ang mo girl kah, local girl kah, people wont laugh de. Ini Indonesian bitch a.k.a Indon aunty pula you nak show off ke? Right few minutes after I saw the photo, I laugh out loud. It's seriously darn shame. He should ashamed for showing the photo but never mind lah..both are matched. The sex maniac guy, serupa gigolo, and the bitch serupa mak ayam. Wakakakaka! Opps! Not only me who did comment on both rascal oh. Finally you got Indon maid for your mom. Apa class lah.. what lauya taste..(that's what you ever said to me before) You deserve it Ah Kai. That's your level lor. Karma mahh..Thank you~

Ok until here then..it's late at night already. And I need to get myself a good rest. Continuing on tomorrow activities. Hunting~ Night everyone~ smile~

Luv

Tuesday, May 3

I feel so terrible

Irritating nose! I having flu for the whole day and my nose look so rounded like a clown. I afraid fall sick. Sore throat, running nose, fever, menses pain, asthma, ohh my.. I really falling sick. I took half day sick leave today and have no idea if I can wake up to work tomorrow. Yea. I still can blog while I sick.. laying down also can typing oh. Don't look down on me. :p I just woke up and don't know what should I do so I just on my laptop and online here. 

Went to clinic just now and doctor did gave me several of medicines. Geez! I hate medicines. At this moment, I miss someone. He love to care me when I fallen sick. He will get worried if he found out I get sick. I miss the way he care me. How I wish if he is around right now. I have no one to care me. He now freely enjoy with his new life while I suffering because of him. Will he considerate and concern on what he did? The answer is no. He is heartless type of person. Have no mercy toward others. He only praising someone that he loving right now, Indon bitch! When ever he find me, there's no other topic than sex. What should we do with this such of person? He anytime can ask for sex with his ex-girlfriend while he loving and praising his girlfriend. This is what he did to me last time when we still in relation. He lied on me for a year with that slut and now he doing the same to her. 

I hope someday, he will get punishment on what he did to me. To other women too. He is deserved to be punish.

Have to stop here. Couldn't stick longer looking on the screen. Need to take rest again. Hopefully will recover before the functions.

Luv

Monday, May 2

Relaxing

I was thought today is Sunday. LOL. Maybe because it's feel like Sunday. It's windy day. Woke up early today as I starting does not feeling well. Having sore throat. Sigh! I hate when I kena sore throat. I couldn't eat anything I want especially spicy and sweet things. Scare to fall sick as I hate to see doctor. I rather just step in to pharmarchy and get myself the medicines. I have to take a break from smoking until I recover from sick (if I can tahan not to smoke, it's become my habit now). 

I have no plan today as I just watching my Korean dramas. But then my mouth couldn't stop from chewing. Geez! But it's good then. I can gaining weight and get back my shape. Oh yea.. btw, I saw someone that I familiar with yesterday when I was hang out with my gorgeous. Unexpected can bumped in to the person in the middle crowded place. She was starred at me, might to recalled who I am. Yes I bet she remember me. I was waiting to see what will happen after she saw me. But nothing happen. I thought she will approach me and ask me some sort of questions. I ain't got nothing to scare of. Why should I scare? It's not my fault anyway. I didn't do anything wrong to her son if she act harshly to me. She should know more about her son, on what he did to me. To a woman as her. Why didn't approach me? Must be your son did told and said anything to you about me? Aren't it obviously your son acting so good in front his parents but the fact he is an animal when come to women matter? 

I love your son badly since the day I met him. I never felt in love that strong although I ever frustrated before. I sacrificed myself to your son as we do love each other before. He brought me back home not because I want it. Your son often brought me home ONLY for one REASON. You should know better than me. Why after get what he want for many years now he just left a trash? My pride? What about my pride? Something that he can thrown like that? I bet there a lot of thing he had been told you just to cover his actual intention uh. Like how he lied everyone. I guessed he will tell only the truth when he did the huge mistake, someday. By that time, everything is too late to turn back. I've been so nice to him but he never appreciate me but to assumed and embarrassing me through internet. How will I count on that? How would he clean and clear my name? No he couldn't do anything about that. He is just a stupid idiot guy I've ever known. Male slut! Sex maniac! I am not that cheap for him to insult. I am not a slut like those bitches he did fuck. Not the same as Indonesian bitch he bowing like a queen. I'm not Indonesian maid too. Your son even said will not meet me again since we broke up last Jan but then, yet he still need my pussy! Is that your son? Lau Puong Kai. Is that the right person to be a man? What the hell is he doing? No humanity at all. Why I'm doing this? Why I acting like this? Anyone who are smart by using their brain, they know of WHY I become like this.

Geez! Why should I ruining my mood with this jerk? A jerk stays as a jerk. Ok then.. I better stop then. Need to do something after this. 

Luv

Sunday, May 1

I miss him

I miss him. Miss his lips especially. Miss his face, eyes, nose, every part of him. I miss him so much. How I wish he could return back to me. I'll be the happiest person ever. Miss to hug him. I couldn't lie myself, my heart about my feeling toward him. As he's the one I love so much from my heart. Who doesn't miss their lover although there no more relation? I couldn't forget him. At this moment, he's the only person who can make me smile and happy. May be because I hasn't found any replacement of him that make me still remember him. 

I shouldn't met him that day day. I hold tight my heart and stick on my decision not to meet him but I couldn't stop my heart not to see him. He did sms-es me non-stop for a week. I know what he want from me. I just don't want he treat me just like his Indon's maid as I am not Indonesian level. But I ended by meeting him that night and we just chit chat in the car. I felt awkward, may be because didn't see each other for so long. Within that period, I can forget him but he appeared once again in front of me, in my heart, I started re-flash back the moment we have been together. Now I miss him so much but I don't even dare to contact him, not once. Am I ego? It's not because ego. I wanted him to know that I love him so much, seriously. I want he know his mistake by doing it to me. Want he realized how hurt I am because of him. 

The night I met him, he do look different. Different than usually. He's getting thin. And does look ugly. His face, I can see through his eyes that he is in such 'a lot of questions to himself'. Is that what he said will loyal to his Indon's bitch? Should I pity on him to choose that Indon bitch? I never force him to choose that bitch. He, himself welcomed the problem. What's good Indonesian girl or I can say aunt? Older than me lagi tu. Then controlling him for everything. Uh huh.. serve you right Ah Kai. That's your choice. I've been so nice and kind to you and sacrifice myself and don't even care about myself. But well, you never will see that. I pretended to be happy that night because I don't want you to know how I still in hurt and pain. I enjoy, happy hours with friends but it doesn't work on me. I mix with those male friends, some approached me to be their partner, but I don't feel I can accept them, at this moment. 

What ever it is. I hope and wish, he will understand and open his eyes wider and realized that everything changed just with once word, BREAK UP. And by the time he realized that I wasn't lie him about my feeling, it's too late to turn over. Too late ...

You'll be in my heart forever.

Luv