Disaster starting again. Haiz! When will all of this will end?? When?? God, do you have the answer? I bet there's no answer for that right? If so, why it still the same? I can't force my feeling to pretend or being fake to love someone that I have no more feeling toward them. Accusing me until I have no chance and space to stand up for my right.
They know the truth about what happened around yet they still pointing their fingers to me. Mom, you are a woman. I hope that you know and understand more better about woman's feeling. Once my heart broken and the scars still there, it's totally broken! I know mom purposely make the noise so that my grandpa will come over and support her to against me. I am the victim here! The victim of the jerk!! Why you all still stand beside him instead to support your own flesh!! You people accuse me until no mercy. Scold me like I have no right to say anything. Will I happy stuck myself at home after that? Will I feel peaceful staying at home? If you all tau how to jaga my hati and respect, understand me from began, will I become like this mah?? It's still consider better that I doesn't be like other girls out there. I still remember dad's advices. Thou he no more in this world, I still respect him.
They don't understand me. And will never want to understand me. I don't use their money for my college fee. I don't force them to give help as I know they will never sincere to help. Dah tolong main ungkit bila gaduh. What's the point you wanna give help if you not sincere on that?
I pray hope that one day everything will be end no matter how. Amen.
Luv~
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