It's cloudy Saturday. I woke up very late today. Pamper myself to have over sleep. Need to recharge back all the energies that been used last week. I have few topic that I would like to posting here. It's about feeling and some kind of pathetic guy.
I've told myself not to involve in any commitment but who are we to control our feeling. I tried harder not to fall in love again. Prevent myself from not to entertain those guys with their sweet talk. Not to soften my heart to any guys out there. But the more I avoid myself the more it appear. Honestly speaking, since after my heart closed toward that psycho LPK, so many bees wanna 'stung' flower for honey. At last I fell to someone kindness. Once again I have someone else while I still with my complicated status. Sigh!! Why God? Why must I have this kind of feeling while I struggling to settle my complicated relation with AK. I've known this Teddy since school. He was my cousin's schoolmate. Younger than me few years. Geez! Why those youngster suka sangat melekat on me ar?
But this person was so fun, friendly and the most I like about him is he is caring person and know how to make me smile all the time. I miss him right now..and I know that he miss me too. The relation still new. Both have earlier relationship that still on. I don't know lah.. I just follow the flow. I've seen and felt the emotions. And I get used with the pain. One thing for sure is, we are not in the same religion. Definitely I cant be with him forever. My family, relatives and friends would not agree on this relationship.
This one thing about psycho, I don't know what his intention right now and I don't want to know. He is pathetic person which is using me for his desire and after what he get from me, he will use that guts to against and ruin me. I have no idea what should I do more about this person. He is such a bastard guy. He the one cheated behind me, hurts me deeply, stabbed me from behind, now then he blame me for everything. What's the point le? We've been break up since January and its been half year after the break up, he appearing again with ridiculous reason to be with me anymore. Gila what?? I am not his cloth, wear me whenever he want. Bastard ball-less. I will never be with him or even meet him as I knew very known about his intention and attitude. He may say anything he want to say but what past is past and that would never be the same again. This time I really will never come back to u LPK. You are no more in my list. What had you did to me was the most fucking darn shit and that never will be the same again lah bro. You choose Indonesian ma'am, now then what? You thought woman can easily play by you are?? Fucking shit ball-less lah!!
Don't ever disturb me anymore else you'll great the most terrible life for the rest of your life Lau Puong Kai!
Luv~
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